It's so difficult to fathom that God knows what's best for me and that I really haven't a clue. I look back on the times when, if I had just trusted Him, things wouldn't have been so difficult to deal with. The thought that all I have to do is put my faith in Him is so very comforting, and yet I can never bring myself to do it. Sometimes I get so impatient that ultimately, I forget who has control over my life and take matters into my own hands with usually not so good results.

I miss my family a lot. There's something that changed this year that brought me so much closer to them. I used to talk to my mom like once every two weeks and now we talk about 3 times a week. I don't talk to my dad as often, but when he e-mails me about how anxious he is for me to come home and hear about what I've been up to and that he loves me, my heart wells up with joy and I feel like Daddy's little girl. And my sister, she's turning into a beautiful young woman. It's incredible to watch her grow. They're coming to visit tomorrow and I couldn't be more excited!

Tried out for Jesus Christ Superstar and made it. I haven't done a musical since 8th grade, so it should be fun and I'll get to make 40 new friends, lol.